Previously before Desteni, I had been dabbling in Occultism I became involved with a white magick occult group based on the writings of Dion Fortune and I eventuated on an interesting group on Spiritual Satanism that I became more strongly involved within. I had completed various rituals, though a little half heartedly and I was not terribly convinced of my application or effectiveness of them. I was convinced my psychic centres were blocked and nothing was getting through.
I read that generations of religious upbringing in the christian faith can block and numb the spiritual senses and chakras and I was to have none of this so I decided to go the whole haul. I discovered that the prescribed meditations did not work as expected and described on the spiritual satanist website.
In my desperation as a result, one ritual I did commit to was a dedication of myself to Satan, which involved a signing of my name in Blood and a burning of the contract using specific coloured candles and a spoken invocation.
In this period in my life (early to mid 2007) in order to 'open the spiritual centres' I was also trying many different types of psychadelic drugs including hawaiian baby woodrose, DMT and Datura.
I am now discovering that I was then simply opening doorways for other beings and entities to come and use my body.
I had entered 'the left hand path' I was not willing to do the 'right thing' according to my life path, which was follow God and be the wound up Christian I was when I was 16 (2002). I decided if I was going to burn in hell, I was going to do it well. I deliberately went against the 'right' I knew, which caused a rift in my consciousness of which residue is left even now.
Of all my spiritual ritualistic exercises one thing did manifest, bees created a beehive in the wall right where my head was sleeping. I heard great buzzing noises of all the sounds inside a beehive, I took this as a manifestation of nature coming to heal my psychic senses and spirit bodies, the bees being a purification tool for this.
About this time the 2012/Nibiru theory was becoming pretty well publicized, and I took some of the bait (which as we well know, didn't happen as expected) and from all this back story, I discovered Desteni from links on youtube watching other 2012/Nibiru videos.
I had only watched a couple of the 'portal videos' and this was the initial seed that was planted. Something about the girl fascinated me.
After the Hawaiian Baby Woodrose trip (LSA, which was an overdose) I decided if I didn't want to do any of this that I was doing with my life (my band, music, work, and living in a funky town called Fremantle) what would I want to do? I decided to sell all of my things to move into the woods/bush to live off the land.
I did this, and was lightly involved with the forums at Desteni Universe and requested if it was something I should do. My reply came from Darryl actually, and that was to explain that "What was I doing asking for someone to make a decision for my life? I knew what to do, and I should be doing it. Stop fucking around", With a very complete moral tone.
After living in the Bush for a week and having taken some Datura with me (be very careful with this one, by the way), I decided to leave due to my need for sugar, having sentenced my appetite to brown rice and whatever natural foods I could find around the place. I brought a survival book with me, not much on Australian flora though, big mistake.
From the nearest town I made a mayday call to my parents through a text through a pay phone and through them calling a nearby hotel and had them fly me to the other side of the country to stay with them for a while. This was where I started getting seriously into Desteni and started applying the breathing exercises and the self-forgiveness and writing, which started to change my life in a very drastic way. Being around my parents at that time was not a good place, as I was breaking down some major walls of conditioning and well I was becoming a different person before their very eyes, a kind of stark, horridly honesty frank personality was the result of my self work and their natural reaction was to project mental illness onto me, I was as yet unstable as how to retain my sense of self without allowing projection to overtake me (I'll come back to projection in just a minute), I just wanted to be left alone while I went through this process.
I came very close to breaking everything down. Whatever that means to you, you can make of it. For what use Bernards words are now, I was told by Bernard I was given a chance.
I ran away three times from my parents (how can I run away from something I have no obligation to be a part of, unless I impose upon myself a sort of pseudo-obligation in order to play this cat and mouse game?).
The third time I 'got away', they sent the white jackets (psycho-police) after me, I got on a train and got off at a station they did not expect, I was reported as a missing person. I got on a train with no ticket to a town in the country 6 hours train trip away and lived in the bush on a hill for 2-3 days. After eventually negotiating some money out of my Mum, I then went to Sydney to a friend outside of the clutches of my parents and got a job and got more heavily involved with Desteni.
I saved money on this job which led to me visiting the Desteni Farm later that year.
My intent with joining Desteni was to gain power. I was frank with this intent, I even mentioned on the forums once, I went to the farm because I was going to the biggest source of power. Bernard did not reply to this, just let another indirect powerful attribute fall upon his shoulders.
I went to Desteni as a vessel asking to be filled, not wanting to take responsibility. Bernard gave me a demon to teach me a lesson. I did not go to Desteni possessed, though I was accused of being possessed on the farm, I left the farm with the psychological belief I was possessed because I was told so by someone I decided to trust unconditionally (big no no, I had no boundaries then and with this no concept of self-respect or not sacrificing self completely for the sake of others).
As a bi-product of my desire for power, I was moved into the facilitation of the Desteni philosophy and Dogma.
This is where it is very important to understand psychology in groups.
My position in the group allowed me certain energy benefits and while Desteni philosophy denies the existence of energy, Bernard would openly speak about his use of 'sexual energy' which he took off us, which he said we had no way of knowing he was using, and we should become more aware of it.
Coming back to projection, I have come to an understanding of my body as a 'mimic'. This means I can take a portion of anothers energy and use the way they use energy, with or without their consent, normally people are unaware of it happening. We all do it a little bit in order to communicate and empathize with one another and understand what each other is saying. I did it in the capacity that I had the intellectual capacity, skills and abilities of the people I was 'sucking off'.
I was not completely aware I did this but sometimes things went well for me for no reason and other times they went horribly wrong. If the yelling fit from Bernard was anything, it was to teach me this, my capacity to take from another without their consent. Considering my intention, my unconscious actions were not in-line with my intention.
A manifestation of someone sensing subtly my presence using them, was a slight irritation. Rationally and logically they could not say anything was happening but something was used that they didn't want to be, that they didn't want to go away.
My presence within the group of Desteni at this time was to, by being 'super-fantastic' using the groups energies, to break forth and show others what was really possible. When I left Desteni, much of the skills and motivation I got using the groups energies left me instantly. As soon as I broke rapport with the group.
What we were asked to do as keeping public diaries that were very honest and very open is exactly the method of a Crowlean Lodge, except the diaries are given to the Master to be read only. This means the 'Master' has access to control every thought of the person, because the person is willingly putting as much as possible of themselves into the mind for the use of the Master for specific and efficient control. As the person becomes more and more open, the person becomes better at being open. This opens up doorways for unconditionally changing conditioning.
This can be a good thing, if it is done by self for self as self - alone.
Doing this unconditional self-honesty with others, and especially with a group that has a 'Master' opens you up to vulnerability, where anyone can change you and if a political philosophy of a group is at hand to replace what you are, then that is what it will do.
We are talking about Neuro-Linguistic-Programming.
Bernard did not keep a secret that he was deliberately changing others.
I myself asked him to engage in what he called 'mind-hacking', this involved unconditional conversations where he placed suggestions I don't consciously remember in the mornings of my stay there at the Desteni farm.
Desteni was a black magick lodge with a 'good intent', it still has potential to do good and still probably will but its methods are those of destruction.
A demon can never walk through the fire and become eternal because a demon must relinquish what it is, for a demon to be a demon it retain an aspect of individuality mixed with desire.
Desteni is a torture device, an equality demon, for those that wish to torture themselves until they wake up to the very real possibility that their life is in their own hands. Deception does not exist, except self-deception.
We make all our own choices. Desteni is a demon that puts all this information right in front of your face, while you say 'yes yes yes' and then leads you down a rabbit hole for 'service'.
When will you stop hating yourself? When will you stop torturing yourself?
How long will it take for you to really stand up?
MAKE SENSE?
Wednesday 7 May 2014
Friday 25 April 2014
Day 3 - What is left to do on a blog then if the external process has been exposed as 'the game'
What is left to do on a blog then if the external process has been exposed as 'the game'?
I could pretend I'm doing process, and get pats on the back from fellow external process-ees for doing self-forgiveness = masturbation (at this point, unless to teach another that genuinely requires a guilt removal tool, if I actually engage in self-forgiveness publicly, it is masturbation).
My starting point could be: To share a completely honest view of each day of my life as it happens to me and different obstacles that come up, to share... this is good and it sounds practical and it may assist others. So as long as my starting point is to assist others unconditionally using self-honesty, I can strive to ever be more and more specific in my external reality so that I can express to people exactly what I see (and them 'getting it') and not 'beat around the bush'.
Exactly defining something kills it. As soon as you put your finger on it exactly it becomes a button that can be pressed and it can be turned off. The reason we have so much trouble is because have found it hard to know exactly what the trouble is.
We have actually done this deliberately.
We wished to be deceived. We wanted this. We wanted to leave the 'reasonable reality' we existed in prior to this experience to experience something 'different' in order to escape our guilt.
So now, in order to fix this mess which is this world, we will have to exactly find out what is going on.
This requires honesty and the tools provided by Desteni are honestly useful and universally usable by everyone that has access to a computer to visit the website.
Desteni has however become a means by which to generate capital, this is necessary for survival of Desteni to a point. Look at the price of the membership for the process-ees is 200 euro a month. Who can afford this but the very elite. Literally, the people that can afford this live in the top 1% of the current economic stratum.
Not only this exhorbitant entrance fee for being a part of the internal-external Desteni process but also books and online books at that (no paper or hard physical thing to have as satisfaction of purchase) are being sold for 10 - 15 euro a piece .
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If Desteni's aim really was to serve the public and give its very important and honestly usable truth unconditionally it would not put such a price on it.
For this reason amongst others, 'truth' cannot be bound to one group.
Alas, equality is not exclusive to Desteni.
Desteni will play a part and is playing a part. Good for Desteni!
However, to those with the same intentions that wish to reach the rest of economic reality (the other 99% of society) the truth is theirs to use and spread.
Intent = Outcome
Intent guided by will is far more powerful than intent ('starting point') being unconsciously driven.
The right knowledge and the right uses of this knowledge is available to those who will use it. The availability of this knowledge is unconditional (aka not limited to a 'Portal').
What Bernard has really created is an equality Demon. An entity that narcissistic-ally fights a black magick (egoic magick) reality with black magick methods and techniques for a white magick outcome.
This is contradictory. Black is destruction. To those that join in the 'Desteni fight' will and are helping the system to collapse and become something different but only at the sacrifice of themselves, the self has to be destroyed at the end of it and this is contradictory to all as one as equal - equality means the self included too, so not sacrificing self for the sake of saving the others.
To those inside the Desteni circle there is no way to understand how you have become what you are unless you can relate from your own experience to being raised in a religious home. Perspective in religion is closed circuit, there is an answer for everything and everything is accounted for in a reality where if you don't cut the buck you end up on the adverse side of 'God's Will', still achieving the will of God in some degree but under the belief that you are working against it due to your requirement to disconnect with Him.
Well in the Desteni reality this is no longer God's Will, it is Bernard's Will.
Bernard taught me many things and without him I would not have such an understanding of reality as I have it now, nor would I have as much control over my physical self, or as deep an understanding of the true and usable uses of Will, Intention and the resultant Magick that comes with it.
Crowley masked these words in different places within his Desteni format styled reality view.
Will was condensed to Breathing (which is the most direct format that can be used for Will, because in Breath we induce Prana which can be stored and used. To convince someone with the obsession that their Will IS their Breath is to give them the deeds to their 'grandfather's Castle inheritance.' It puts the power in the hands of the user directly. But with so much power there comes conditions and while breath is the underlying teaching that gives Desteni its oomph... The followers do not see that the path they took into Desteni led them to a subtle domain of manipulation which as a bi-product puts their power (their Will) indirectly in their hands. To break away from Desteni for most Destonians would also be a loss of self-empowerment because their starting point for breath was not themselves but rather the very predictable subtle intention of 'belonging in a group and believing I am doing the right thing.'
'Intention' in Desteni was simply put - Starting Point.
Magick, well, magic is Self-Correction, Self-Empowerment, Self-Honesty.
Self-forgiveness is a way of removing guilt, 'cause guilt is unnecessary and can get in the way of so much.
Once enough self-forgiveness is done the brain gets used to the idea of forgiving itself for everything and from that point on all self-forgiveness may as well be masturbation.
It's nice, it makes you feel good. That's the way Bernard intended it to be used.
What I am trying to make you senior Destonians understand is that this was a planned structure from the start.
Bernard said himself, after visiting the masters and discovering the state of the bullshit reality and the lack of willingness for anyone in actual powerful ability to do anything about it, driven by anger, he desired to be and create the biggest demon imaginable.
He has spoken many things that are incongruent with the Desteni teachings, but because you were under his spell/hypnosis (not specifically directly, mainly indirectly due to your desire to achieve 'gnosis' (whatever that whiz bang definition is for you!) and unwillingness to do it on your own steam looking for the closest thing that will do to ease the pain you feel when you think of all the children that are dieing all over the world) you never saw what he was actually teaching YOUR BODIES.
Maybe now you will.
Love,
M
I could pretend I'm doing process, and get pats on the back from fellow external process-ees for doing self-forgiveness = masturbation (at this point, unless to teach another that genuinely requires a guilt removal tool, if I actually engage in self-forgiveness publicly, it is masturbation).
My starting point could be: To share a completely honest view of each day of my life as it happens to me and different obstacles that come up, to share... this is good and it sounds practical and it may assist others. So as long as my starting point is to assist others unconditionally using self-honesty, I can strive to ever be more and more specific in my external reality so that I can express to people exactly what I see (and them 'getting it') and not 'beat around the bush'.
Exactly defining something kills it. As soon as you put your finger on it exactly it becomes a button that can be pressed and it can be turned off. The reason we have so much trouble is because have found it hard to know exactly what the trouble is.
We have actually done this deliberately.
We wished to be deceived. We wanted this. We wanted to leave the 'reasonable reality' we existed in prior to this experience to experience something 'different' in order to escape our guilt.
So now, in order to fix this mess which is this world, we will have to exactly find out what is going on.
This requires honesty and the tools provided by Desteni are honestly useful and universally usable by everyone that has access to a computer to visit the website.
Desteni has however become a means by which to generate capital, this is necessary for survival of Desteni to a point. Look at the price of the membership for the process-ees is 200 euro a month. Who can afford this but the very elite. Literally, the people that can afford this live in the top 1% of the current economic stratum.
Not only this exhorbitant entrance fee for being a part of the internal-external Desteni process but also books and online books at that (no paper or hard physical thing to have as satisfaction of purchase) are being sold for 10 - 15 euro a piece .
= =
O O
>
0
!
If Desteni's aim really was to serve the public and give its very important and honestly usable truth unconditionally it would not put such a price on it.
For this reason amongst others, 'truth' cannot be bound to one group.
Alas, equality is not exclusive to Desteni.
Desteni will play a part and is playing a part. Good for Desteni!
However, to those with the same intentions that wish to reach the rest of economic reality (the other 99% of society) the truth is theirs to use and spread.
Intent = Outcome
Intent guided by will is far more powerful than intent ('starting point') being unconsciously driven.
The right knowledge and the right uses of this knowledge is available to those who will use it. The availability of this knowledge is unconditional (aka not limited to a 'Portal').
What Bernard has really created is an equality Demon. An entity that narcissistic-ally fights a black magick (egoic magick) reality with black magick methods and techniques for a white magick outcome.
This is contradictory. Black is destruction. To those that join in the 'Desteni fight' will and are helping the system to collapse and become something different but only at the sacrifice of themselves, the self has to be destroyed at the end of it and this is contradictory to all as one as equal - equality means the self included too, so not sacrificing self for the sake of saving the others.
To those inside the Desteni circle there is no way to understand how you have become what you are unless you can relate from your own experience to being raised in a religious home. Perspective in religion is closed circuit, there is an answer for everything and everything is accounted for in a reality where if you don't cut the buck you end up on the adverse side of 'God's Will', still achieving the will of God in some degree but under the belief that you are working against it due to your requirement to disconnect with Him.
Well in the Desteni reality this is no longer God's Will, it is Bernard's Will.
Bernard taught me many things and without him I would not have such an understanding of reality as I have it now, nor would I have as much control over my physical self, or as deep an understanding of the true and usable uses of Will, Intention and the resultant Magick that comes with it.
Crowley masked these words in different places within his Desteni format styled reality view.
Will was condensed to Breathing (which is the most direct format that can be used for Will, because in Breath we induce Prana which can be stored and used. To convince someone with the obsession that their Will IS their Breath is to give them the deeds to their 'grandfather's Castle inheritance.' It puts the power in the hands of the user directly. But with so much power there comes conditions and while breath is the underlying teaching that gives Desteni its oomph... The followers do not see that the path they took into Desteni led them to a subtle domain of manipulation which as a bi-product puts their power (their Will) indirectly in their hands. To break away from Desteni for most Destonians would also be a loss of self-empowerment because their starting point for breath was not themselves but rather the very predictable subtle intention of 'belonging in a group and believing I am doing the right thing.'
'Intention' in Desteni was simply put - Starting Point.
Magick, well, magic is Self-Correction, Self-Empowerment, Self-Honesty.
Self-forgiveness is a way of removing guilt, 'cause guilt is unnecessary and can get in the way of so much.
Once enough self-forgiveness is done the brain gets used to the idea of forgiving itself for everything and from that point on all self-forgiveness may as well be masturbation.
It's nice, it makes you feel good. That's the way Bernard intended it to be used.
What I am trying to make you senior Destonians understand is that this was a planned structure from the start.
Bernard said himself, after visiting the masters and discovering the state of the bullshit reality and the lack of willingness for anyone in actual powerful ability to do anything about it, driven by anger, he desired to be and create the biggest demon imaginable.
He has spoken many things that are incongruent with the Desteni teachings, but because you were under his spell/hypnosis (not specifically directly, mainly indirectly due to your desire to achieve 'gnosis' (whatever that whiz bang definition is for you!) and unwillingness to do it on your own steam looking for the closest thing that will do to ease the pain you feel when you think of all the children that are dieing all over the world) you never saw what he was actually teaching YOUR BODIES.
Maybe now you will.
Love,
M
Thursday 24 April 2014
Day 2 - The external process is the game, the internal process that is done for as by self is the Real process unaffected by the 'game process'
The greatest error with a method of removing conditioning like the one that is being utilized here is well, the one that is right in front of our faces.
A process for self. This 'journey to life' by self. Is to be done for self as self for it to be effective.
The issue with it being done here publicly on a blog is that there is a secret narcissist within each one of us that wishes to expose itself and have a forum by which it can show off what a wonderful job of 'process' it is doing, and or just have a place to 'boast' and 'spill' in whatever group acceptable format. This here is the 'Desteni format' of the excuse to feed the narcissist through what is known in the specifically designed vocabulary as 'self-process'.
As long as 'process' is in the public eye, there is no true process. Unless of course the starting point is pure but even then, the Real process that is within cannot be dependent on the outside manifestation of the process to be truly what it is.
With the above issue, I speak about me - obviously I allow for myself to have a subjective view and others to see things from their subjective view as well, not blanketing an objective view on everything and everyone (though it is convenient to do so in order to achieve certain modes of communication). This 'secret narcissist' is what I stumbled into when I first started 'process' with Desteni was that there was suddenly a domain for my demon to show itself off. It became a game. I had a domain to be a narcissist and I was getting emotional rewards for it from those that were 'doing process' with me.
It still is a game and it won't ever stop being a game as long as it is external. The only place it is not a game is when I am doing my process for me as me by my self alone, inside, within and as perfection and honesty as only I know for myself what that is - and my effectiveness of my actual inner-process is reflected by my experiential knowledge based understanding of these two words -
perfection and honesty.
I can accept nothing less than what I know to be.
This is perfection.
I cannot be alone, unless I am truly alone. This may mean subjectively I have the ability to be 'alone' when around others, only allowing myself to exist in a tunnel reality I have created for myself because all this is possible using the tool of the mind.
The tool of the mind is a tool that has uses, as well as its dis-uses, which we have become use to.
This is not from the intention of separating myself from others but rather to have specific and comprehensive control of what is inside as self alone and what I allow outside as part of the game.
It is unfortunate we have come to this process, that we need such a process in order to continue, but this is the way it is and it is no longer worth crying over spilt milk.
So, my clarification here, for this blog is that my Real process (capital 'R') is within and can only ever happen within. The 'image process' or the outside exhibited 'process' is a game of processes that we are all playing with each other secretly competing for who it is that is the most processed and who will process the best processing processed self-corrective in practiced processed.
You'd hope we come out the other end soft gooey cheese, or else what is achieved?
The game cannot be escaped.
The game can be limited to only the external world, however,
the process of purification is the removal of the game from the inside so that 'aloneness' within can be achieved in all moments at any location within any circumstance.
I know I have achieved an aptitude of this, but I am still learning and still processing the parts of myself inside that is/are 'game', still maintaining a level of participation within the game by creating a special place in the mind specifically for the 'image' or the 'game player'.
The Real process put simply is to place a switch within to what is still unconsciously attached to the external game, so that I can control what level of participation within the game I wish, need, require to play.
This is done from the starting point of - all as one as equal.
Welcome to the reality of public-relations-'journey to life'-processing.
I'm glad to be amongst you all once again.
Love,
M
ps. The most honest 'show' wins the greatest prize. Twisting the mind demon around on itself like this causes excruciating pain. We are suckers for torchure now aren't we?
What has been created in Desteni is a 'show' of honesty, where 'image' pressures 'image' to be more and more honest and this in turn influences the middle-lower classes that see it and believe it for what it is, people that have no understanding of the difference between the inside and the outside.
The process external is Real up to a point. Then it becomes 'show'. As soon as the 'processee' discovers themselves alone, the only Real process that can then progress is the process that is alone.
To further participate in the energy achieved from external 'processing' simply internalizes old energy habits, connecting physical actions unconsciously with emotion dependent triggers.
Others have seen this but has it ever been this specific?
A process for self. This 'journey to life' by self. Is to be done for self as self for it to be effective.
The issue with it being done here publicly on a blog is that there is a secret narcissist within each one of us that wishes to expose itself and have a forum by which it can show off what a wonderful job of 'process' it is doing, and or just have a place to 'boast' and 'spill' in whatever group acceptable format. This here is the 'Desteni format' of the excuse to feed the narcissist through what is known in the specifically designed vocabulary as 'self-process'.
As long as 'process' is in the public eye, there is no true process. Unless of course the starting point is pure but even then, the Real process that is within cannot be dependent on the outside manifestation of the process to be truly what it is.
With the above issue, I speak about me - obviously I allow for myself to have a subjective view and others to see things from their subjective view as well, not blanketing an objective view on everything and everyone (though it is convenient to do so in order to achieve certain modes of communication). This 'secret narcissist' is what I stumbled into when I first started 'process' with Desteni was that there was suddenly a domain for my demon to show itself off. It became a game. I had a domain to be a narcissist and I was getting emotional rewards for it from those that were 'doing process' with me.
It still is a game and it won't ever stop being a game as long as it is external. The only place it is not a game is when I am doing my process for me as me by my self alone, inside, within and as perfection and honesty as only I know for myself what that is - and my effectiveness of my actual inner-process is reflected by my experiential knowledge based understanding of these two words -
perfection and honesty.
I can accept nothing less than what I know to be.
This is perfection.
I cannot be alone, unless I am truly alone. This may mean subjectively I have the ability to be 'alone' when around others, only allowing myself to exist in a tunnel reality I have created for myself because all this is possible using the tool of the mind.
The tool of the mind is a tool that has uses, as well as its dis-uses, which we have become use to.
This is not from the intention of separating myself from others but rather to have specific and comprehensive control of what is inside as self alone and what I allow outside as part of the game.
It is unfortunate we have come to this process, that we need such a process in order to continue, but this is the way it is and it is no longer worth crying over spilt milk.
So, my clarification here, for this blog is that my Real process (capital 'R') is within and can only ever happen within. The 'image process' or the outside exhibited 'process' is a game of processes that we are all playing with each other secretly competing for who it is that is the most processed and who will process the best processing processed self-corrective in practiced processed.
You'd hope we come out the other end soft gooey cheese, or else what is achieved?
The game cannot be escaped.
The game can be limited to only the external world, however,
the process of purification is the removal of the game from the inside so that 'aloneness' within can be achieved in all moments at any location within any circumstance.
I know I have achieved an aptitude of this, but I am still learning and still processing the parts of myself inside that is/are 'game', still maintaining a level of participation within the game by creating a special place in the mind specifically for the 'image' or the 'game player'.
The Real process put simply is to place a switch within to what is still unconsciously attached to the external game, so that I can control what level of participation within the game I wish, need, require to play.
This is done from the starting point of - all as one as equal.
Welcome to the reality of public-relations-'journey to life'-processing.
I'm glad to be amongst you all once again.
Love,
M
ps. The most honest 'show' wins the greatest prize. Twisting the mind demon around on itself like this causes excruciating pain. We are suckers for torchure now aren't we?
What has been created in Desteni is a 'show' of honesty, where 'image' pressures 'image' to be more and more honest and this in turn influences the middle-lower classes that see it and believe it for what it is, people that have no understanding of the difference between the inside and the outside.
The process external is Real up to a point. Then it becomes 'show'. As soon as the 'processee' discovers themselves alone, the only Real process that can then progress is the process that is alone.
To further participate in the energy achieved from external 'processing' simply internalizes old energy habits, connecting physical actions unconsciously with emotion dependent triggers.
Others have seen this but has it ever been this specific?
Wednesday 23 April 2014
A new blog a new day, let us use the Desteni format for deconstruction of conditioning
Day 1
It's been a long time since I've been in contact with Desteni.
It has been approximately seven years since I first made contact with this group.
I miss the stability of the honest structure this group created for me. A world in which I could call a spade a spade and well, it would stay a spade.
I currently live in the woods in the outskirts of London, in a squatted piece of land with about 30 others.
I engage in practical activities including building and digging wells, I have recently held a full moon eclipse ceremony at a temple space I have built.
For sustenance, I eat from the bins. I also do busking for a little extra on the side.
I live quite comfortably for now, but my life has changed drastically and often in the last seven years, maybe we will have time to revisit some moments and we can learn together.
I look forward to using the tools available through Desteni and consulting with the group as to the reality of my observations.
Reference points are vital, no matter how alone and how much I believe I am stable on my own, without a reference point I stagger down a rabbit hole. The mind will lead me into itself only.
Thank you Desteni for being the only true conditioning deconstruction agent that I have found to be successful in my wanderings.
M
It's been a long time since I've been in contact with Desteni.
It has been approximately seven years since I first made contact with this group.
I miss the stability of the honest structure this group created for me. A world in which I could call a spade a spade and well, it would stay a spade.
I currently live in the woods in the outskirts of London, in a squatted piece of land with about 30 others.
I engage in practical activities including building and digging wells, I have recently held a full moon eclipse ceremony at a temple space I have built.
For sustenance, I eat from the bins. I also do busking for a little extra on the side.
I live quite comfortably for now, but my life has changed drastically and often in the last seven years, maybe we will have time to revisit some moments and we can learn together.
I look forward to using the tools available through Desteni and consulting with the group as to the reality of my observations.
Reference points are vital, no matter how alone and how much I believe I am stable on my own, without a reference point I stagger down a rabbit hole. The mind will lead me into itself only.
Thank you Desteni for being the only true conditioning deconstruction agent that I have found to be successful in my wanderings.
M
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